MASH! When I Grow Up!

I was recently told that my blog is depressing. I admit that some posts are like that but I express my feelings and that may come off in a bad way.  So I want to make this post happy!

When you were little did you ever play that game MASH? I love it!!

If you are not familiar it is when you take a scrap piece of paper and write MASH on the top.(Mansion, Apartment, Shack, House) Then you create different categories like Spouse, Salary, Job, Car, Location, etc. (It gets fun when you're creative with the categories like Pet, Child Names, Retirement Age, blah, blah.) I usually pick half the choices for the friend and they select the others. That way they can't be totally satisfied with any selection.  The way I pick a number is writing dash marks until they say when. Then you go through and count to that number going down the list including letters MASH and cross out till you have one in each category and thats how you play. 

Yes this is slightly immature and childish but honestly it's fun and wastes some time.

It's fun to think of what you want to be when you grow up in such a fake sense. Like living in a Mansion with a $1 million salary, 5 kids, driving a sports car, and working as a movie star.  Would you honestly really want to live that way or you just think you would? I probably would but we'll see what happens! 

I drink wine with diamonds in the glass!

1. Your ex and you = N/A
2. I am listening to = Lady Marmalade!
3. Maybe I should = do some homework.
4. I love = chocolate.
5. Chocolate is = my one true love.
6. I don't understand = people
7. I've lost respect for = myself
8. I last ate = a glass of cranberry juice cocktail
9. The meaning of my display name is = I am tall and my name is Tom.
10. God = confusing
11. Someday = I will realize I can never be independant
12. I will always remember = things I regret.
14. I never ever want to lose = my family.
16. Tomorrow I will = go to class and do nothing.
17. I get annoyed when = people chew food loudly.
18. Parties = really fun as long as people aren't immature.
20. Simple kisses = are cute.
21. Today I = got lost in a bad part of the city.
22. I wish = I could not be so confused.

IS YOUR / ARE YOU...

01. is your hair wet?: No.
02. is your cell phone right by you?: Yes, always.
03. do you miss someone?: Kind of.
04. are you wearing chap stick?: Always
05. are you tired?: In a boredom way.
06. are you wearing pajamas?: No
08. are you mad?: Probably
09. are you upset?: Probably

HAVE YOU...

01. recently done anything you regret?: Yes, but won't realize it till later.
02. ever stuck gum under a desk?: EW no!
03. ever kicked someone?: Ya
04. ever tripped over your own feet?: Have you seen my feet!? Of course I do.

TODAY HAVE YOU...

01. have you cursed?: No.
02. have you gotten mad at someone?: No.
03. have you laughed really hard?: No.

Q: is there a person who is on your mind right now?: No.
Q: do you have any siblings?: Yes.
Q: do you smile often? Sometimes.
Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? No, I usually untie them before I put them back on.
Q: do you like your handwriting? Yes, it's still a work in progress.
Q: are your toenails painted?: No
Q: are you a friendly person? Yes, but at first I may appear mean.
Q: what were you doing at 2pm yesterday? Sitting around watching Moulin Rouge.

Bad Luck

Ugh.

Once again, my bad luck continues.

Someone tried stealing the antenna off my car which required massive gauging around the attenna to get it out. They failed to get it out since there was a larger motor part underneath. This is another thing that I need to fix on my car and spend more money on.

I bought a lottery ticket for last night and let's see if I won...

NOPE!

I had hope but it was let down, but whatever, it is the lottery which is known for not fulfilling people's dreams of crazy amounts of money.

Remembrance

There is a certain feeling that I get when I think of September 11th. It can't be classified as sadness, grief, remorse, anger, or scared. I feel more overwhelmed.

There is just so much that happened in such a short time and it all happened as I was becoming an adult. At this point in my life it was hard to have "real" feelings and have them be true to the real you.

I can remember the day it happened and what exactly happened that day for me. But what is scary is that every anniversary I think of how long it has been and what has happened since then which the people will never see or experience.  

It has been seven years.  It was three days before my 13th birthday, beginning my teenage years.  Three days from today, I turn 20, beginning of my twenties. There has been so many things which happened because of seven years ago which occurred in my teens. As I turn 20, I want to remember what really matters every day and that is being able to see, smell, taste, live, experience each day. Something which people take for granted until it is taken from them. 

So every year around this time, I am reminded that life can be taken from you at any moment. I can now see those "real" feelings as I feel like I am an adult now. The sadness, grief, anger, and scared feelings hit me more and more every year. I don't know how anybody can not remember that day, but this is how I view the anniversary of September 11th, 2001.

If you're ready, come and get me!

So...

here's the deal, I really have not been in the mood to write my feelings/thoughts/adventures online for the past like two weeks. I have been in the state of mind where I do not really care about anything. I got my first ever speeding ticket and was so mad but I put it behind me. I had issues with my apartment, but got over it. My car broke down and cost me a lot fix, but I paid the bill and she runs fine now. Now if I came to my blog and just complained about all of these things then I don't think anybody would really care. So things are going to change, or so I hope.

I want to start writing about all kinds of topics on here. I don't need a blog to vent my feelings especially because I may not want them read by random people. I sometimes go throughout the day and think to myself, "I should blog about _______ and ______." I have random thoughts and I seem to forget to write them down. LoL. If any of my readers, which is like four people, have any questions or topics they would like me to write about, please feel free to email me or comment with suggestions. (tflo555@gmail.com)

OMG 

It has almost been a week since my last blog. It has been so hectic and busy. 

I will update soon. I hope.

If anybody is keeping up with me.

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Labor Day Weekend = Lots o Labor

I don't really feel like blogging, but my weekend was kinda crappy. My lease signing for my apartment was huge pain and then on my way home from the second time I had to drive two hours up there, I got a speeding ticket, which I paid in full because going to court right now is just too much to handle. 

Will I update this later? I doubt. But many things have been running through my mind on which to blog about and no action has been taken. I will see what is to come in the near future.