Loves this song and it's lyrics!

IDENTIFIED - VANESSA HUDGENS

I know what you're trying to do
Know what you're trying to say
You're giving me the eye
Than pushing me away
It's like you're playing games
Like you're the only one
We're both one and the same
So think about it

All your friends are telling me
There's only one ambition on your mind
You keep on denying it
But all the proof I need is in your eyes

You can say what you want
Play it cool if you like
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart
Put up a front
But I see what's inside
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart

You keep asking how I am
And watching what I do
You waiting for the chance?
Come on and tell the truth
It's more than obvious
The way you cover up
So tell me why the fuss
Just come on over

All your friends are telling me
There's only one ambition on your mind
You keep on denying it
But all the proof I need is in your eyes
(it's in your eyes)

You can say what you want
Play it cool if you like
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart
Put up a front
But I see what's inside
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart

You can say what you want
Play it cool if you like
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart
Put up a front
But I see what's inside
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart

I got a confession
I can see through what you're doing
Had it from the beginning
That you're identified
Come on over to me
Tell me now before you lose me
It's no secret you pursue me
Got you identified

You can say what you want
Play it cool if you like
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart
Put up a front
But I see what's inside
That you're identified
You play my heart 'cause you're smart

You can say what you want
Play it cool if you like
That you're identified (identified)
You play my heart 'cause you're smart
Put up a front
But I see what's inside
That you're identified (identified)
You play my heart 'cause you're smart

Aundrea Aundrea

Growing up between two fathers,

Our little miss sunshine,

Cute as a cupcake,

Her happiness is all that matters. 

Earning baby bucks with every hug,

We buy her endless sweets,

Trips to the circus and zoo 

Her ginger hair is just so fug. 

It is her real essence,

I try to ignore,

She's growing up so fast

And is quite a menace. 

I'm happy to have her 

In my E-life,

To her health and hunger,

we have to cater. 

She is the bond 

Between her father and I,

We have so much fun with her,

I can't wait to log back on.

Full Month and a New Moon

It's been a full month since my last blog post. Wow.

I will complete this one hopefully later today but I really want to talk about Twilight!!

UPDATE:

Okay, so honestly, there is so much more happening right now than to talk about Twilight but I promised.

So I made a promise with a friend at the end of the summer to read Twilight before the movie came out in November. Well it is already November! OMG. It went by so quickly. I got into the book when I first started and got to Chapter 10 but then I started school again and I lost my attention span for reading. SO last week I picked it back up after some pressure from a certain person lol and I go so into it! I finished it in like two days and it was so so so good! As you read it you can feel the tension and passion the author portrays between Bella and Edward. 

Note: If you have no idea what I am talking about then go look up the book "Twilight" mostly likely found in the best sellers list of bookstores. 

I really enjoyed it and I have already bought the sequel, "New Moon." I am going to start it tonight but I love laying in bed staying snuggled up with a good book. There are four books in the series so we will have to see how fast I finish the rest!!

PS. The picture above is from THIS video from SNL. It is sooo funny. "NO, YOU LISTEN!" "I CARE!....I CARE!!"

Happy October!

It is officially October and that means Halloween and the season of Autumn.

Okay, well in my real opinion Halloween season starts once Target takes out their Back to School items and replace them with aisles of candy and costumes! And technically Autumn starts September 22nd but it really starts to feel like fall around this time.  The air is brisk and the leaves have begun to turn, while you start to wear a jacket or a hoodie and you get cozy.  

But I was so excited when my mom surprised me with a box of Halloween Funfetti cake mix and the matching frosting. Naturally I had to make them ASAP! They are amazing. You really can't beat Pillsbury Funfetti. 

So go get a Pumpkin Spice Latte from Starbucks, put on hoodie, bake some cupcakes, and go enjoy the season of fall before it becomes winter!

MASH! When I Grow Up!

I was recently told that my blog is depressing. I admit that some posts are like that but I express my feelings and that may come off in a bad way.  So I want to make this post happy!

When you were little did you ever play that game MASH? I love it!!

If you are not familiar it is when you take a scrap piece of paper and write MASH on the top.(Mansion, Apartment, Shack, House) Then you create different categories like Spouse, Salary, Job, Car, Location, etc. (It gets fun when you're creative with the categories like Pet, Child Names, Retirement Age, blah, blah.) I usually pick half the choices for the friend and they select the others. That way they can't be totally satisfied with any selection.  The way I pick a number is writing dash marks until they say when. Then you go through and count to that number going down the list including letters MASH and cross out till you have one in each category and thats how you play. 

Yes this is slightly immature and childish but honestly it's fun and wastes some time.

It's fun to think of what you want to be when you grow up in such a fake sense. Like living in a Mansion with a $1 million salary, 5 kids, driving a sports car, and working as a movie star.  Would you honestly really want to live that way or you just think you would? I probably would but we'll see what happens! 

I drink wine with diamonds in the glass!

1. Your ex and you = N/A
2. I am listening to = Lady Marmalade!
3. Maybe I should = do some homework.
4. I love = chocolate.
5. Chocolate is = my one true love.
6. I don't understand = people
7. I've lost respect for = myself
8. I last ate = a glass of cranberry juice cocktail
9. The meaning of my display name is = I am tall and my name is Tom.
10. God = confusing
11. Someday = I will realize I can never be independant
12. I will always remember = things I regret.
14. I never ever want to lose = my family.
16. Tomorrow I will = go to class and do nothing.
17. I get annoyed when = people chew food loudly.
18. Parties = really fun as long as people aren't immature.
20. Simple kisses = are cute.
21. Today I = got lost in a bad part of the city.
22. I wish = I could not be so confused.

IS YOUR / ARE YOU...

01. is your hair wet?: No.
02. is your cell phone right by you?: Yes, always.
03. do you miss someone?: Kind of.
04. are you wearing chap stick?: Always
05. are you tired?: In a boredom way.
06. are you wearing pajamas?: No
08. are you mad?: Probably
09. are you upset?: Probably

HAVE YOU...

01. recently done anything you regret?: Yes, but won't realize it till later.
02. ever stuck gum under a desk?: EW no!
03. ever kicked someone?: Ya
04. ever tripped over your own feet?: Have you seen my feet!? Of course I do.

TODAY HAVE YOU...

01. have you cursed?: No.
02. have you gotten mad at someone?: No.
03. have you laughed really hard?: No.

Q: is there a person who is on your mind right now?: No.
Q: do you have any siblings?: Yes.
Q: do you smile often? Sometimes.
Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? No, I usually untie them before I put them back on.
Q: do you like your handwriting? Yes, it's still a work in progress.
Q: are your toenails painted?: No
Q: are you a friendly person? Yes, but at first I may appear mean.
Q: what were you doing at 2pm yesterday? Sitting around watching Moulin Rouge.

Bad Luck

Ugh.

Once again, my bad luck continues.

Someone tried stealing the antenna off my car which required massive gauging around the attenna to get it out. They failed to get it out since there was a larger motor part underneath. This is another thing that I need to fix on my car and spend more money on.

I bought a lottery ticket for last night and let's see if I won...

NOPE!

I had hope but it was let down, but whatever, it is the lottery which is known for not fulfilling people's dreams of crazy amounts of money.

Remembrance

There is a certain feeling that I get when I think of September 11th. It can't be classified as sadness, grief, remorse, anger, or scared. I feel more overwhelmed.

There is just so much that happened in such a short time and it all happened as I was becoming an adult. At this point in my life it was hard to have "real" feelings and have them be true to the real you.

I can remember the day it happened and what exactly happened that day for me. But what is scary is that every anniversary I think of how long it has been and what has happened since then which the people will never see or experience.  

It has been seven years.  It was three days before my 13th birthday, beginning my teenage years.  Three days from today, I turn 20, beginning of my twenties. There has been so many things which happened because of seven years ago which occurred in my teens. As I turn 20, I want to remember what really matters every day and that is being able to see, smell, taste, live, experience each day. Something which people take for granted until it is taken from them. 

So every year around this time, I am reminded that life can be taken from you at any moment. I can now see those "real" feelings as I feel like I am an adult now. The sadness, grief, anger, and scared feelings hit me more and more every year. I don't know how anybody can not remember that day, but this is how I view the anniversary of September 11th, 2001.

If you're ready, come and get me!

So...

here's the deal, I really have not been in the mood to write my feelings/thoughts/adventures online for the past like two weeks. I have been in the state of mind where I do not really care about anything. I got my first ever speeding ticket and was so mad but I put it behind me. I had issues with my apartment, but got over it. My car broke down and cost me a lot fix, but I paid the bill and she runs fine now. Now if I came to my blog and just complained about all of these things then I don't think anybody would really care. So things are going to change, or so I hope.

I want to start writing about all kinds of topics on here. I don't need a blog to vent my feelings especially because I may not want them read by random people. I sometimes go throughout the day and think to myself, "I should blog about _______ and ______." I have random thoughts and I seem to forget to write them down. LoL. If any of my readers, which is like four people, have any questions or topics they would like me to write about, please feel free to email me or comment with suggestions. (tflo555@gmail.com)

OMG 

It has almost been a week since my last blog. It has been so hectic and busy. 

I will update soon. I hope.

If anybody is keeping up with me.

[}} <3

Labor Day Weekend = Lots o Labor

I don't really feel like blogging, but my weekend was kinda crappy. My lease signing for my apartment was huge pain and then on my way home from the second time I had to drive two hours up there, I got a speeding ticket, which I paid in full because going to court right now is just too much to handle. 

Will I update this later? I doubt. But many things have been running through my mind on which to blog about and no action has been taken. I will see what is to come in the near future.

Shelley Sickness

Today: Whoa.

Well it starts this morning, driving into work. I pull out of my driveway and Shelley was very hesitant when accelerating. She shuddered slightly and was not shifting right. This was the same feeling that it had the day before after it was overheating. So I went into work this morning and I was able to get out early. I walked out of work smiling since it was my last day for the summer and it has been literally giving me nightmares while I sleep. Well, I went to go and start it and it didn't turn over. The dashboard just turned on and there was no ignition. SO, I called my mom and she called AAA for me. But it stinks because I was going to meet her at the car shop anyways. But nope, I had wait for a really creepy tow truck man to come and then since my parking lot is gated I had to get the parking maintenance people to come and open the gate for us. The tow truck man's diagnosis of Shelley's illness was a frozen engine. I was doubtful, but I am not good with cars so I agreed anyways. Thank gawd the automotive shop wasn't really far, because any trip longer than the approx 6 minutes it took to get there would be dreadful. He kept coughing from his supposed sinuses, however, the pack of cigarettes and raspy voice leads me to believe he has emphysema or some drug related sickness.  Additional note, he has disgusting yellow pointy teeth which were sticking out above his ginormous bottom lip. I was disturbed by them.  BUT he was helping me with my car, so I was nice to him. I finally made it to the shop and dropped off my car. My mom picked me up and I went home. I really hope that Shelley gets well very very soon. I need her to recover so I can move into my new apartment. :)

Happy Bug

My brother just sent this to me and its hilarious.

New Set of Windows

The lighting is bad here. However I have a new pair of glasses!!

For those of you who do not know. I wear contacts all the time but finally got a good pair of glasses. They are Diesel Brand and I am sooo not materialistic ;).

They really aren't anything special but I like them and hopefully you do as well, since I care SO much about opinions on my looks from Epeople. lol

PS. I definitely look smarter.

Chocolate Addict & Blog Readers

Along with my other addictions, I have recently been indulging in chocolate. A LOT!

I have been bringing in a bag of candy to work and sharing with my co-workers throughout the day, however, I eat so much of it. Now I am always feeling like I want chocolate. They are terrible cravings and maybe it is a sign. Maybe I am pregnant. LOL. Like that is even a possibility. As I binge on my second M&M's Peanut Mini's, I think of what else I can eat in the house with chocolate in it. Something has to be done! HELP.

Also,

I was curious on who actually reads this blog. I really don't have a set topic or schedule for blogging, so it's not like people come here everyday for Tech News or something. But if you DO read this blog, leave me a comment! I would love to hear from you. Even if you are reading this next week or in the next hour. Comment and give me your thoughts!! :) Thanks

An Extra Shot

So I haven't  blogged since Friday and it may not seem like a long time but to me it seems like forever. 

Within these past few days, I have seemed to change my whole mindset and mood. I do seem to change moods very often but I really seem to be happy, upbeat, and less negative towards things.  What do I credit for this change? I have no clue. But it's weird that I finally feel like it is summer and it is already over. I might just be happy about this or that I have visited Starbucks everyday for the past week. (sometimes twice in a day) 

Some may call me obsessed but it is more than just the product, its the service. In other words, it's the baristas that keep me going back. They are so amazing and so friendly. I think I have changed from a guest to a friend. I wish I could just spend all my time there and talk with them and relax, because after working all day that is really what I want to do. I usually take a book and sit outside and watch the sunset or bring my "gang" (in Barista Matt's terminology) and sit around and chit chat. I have spent more time there because I will soon be going back to school and they have been threatened to close down. So I want to soak up the last caffienated moments I have with them!

That turned out to be a long explanation, but I think that could be why I am so upbeat lately!

And when I am "down" I turn to blogging, so I will try to keep up blogging filled with positive thoughts! :)

Doggy Love

I found this dog and I am in love with it. 

If anybody knows what kind it is please tell me.

Thank you.

PS. LMAO

Book Updeight

While perusing the book aisles of Target with Jenn, I was discussing how I wanted to find a new book. She said that her boss and clients at work were in love with this book series called Twilight.  

We found it! There were four books in the series and I am not sure of what its called but one of the books was called Twilight, which I bought. I am on Chapter 5 and I am really liking it!!

I have also cofounded a bookclub and I am so excited. 

It might just be bigger than Oprah's. ;)

Gross

While driving home tonight, a car pulled up next to Jenn and I at a traffic light. We looked over and the entire back seat and passenger seat was FILLED with trash. It was so tightly packed in there. It was all loose trash and looked like fast food cups and wrappers. It was completely disgusting. The driver could not see out his back window and it was really dangerous. We were in amazement and somewhat scared of seeing this. So weird!

I can't imagine how the inside of that car must have smelled like. EW!

Book Boredom

Over the summer I always tend to tell myself that I will read a bunch of books; since I will have a lot of free time.

This plan never works out. Last year, I met this very interesting couple at work who was friends with this restauranteur in NYC. And I went out and bought his book. It was very interesting! Well the first half that is. I never finished it. I also bought a book because it was like $4 and figured I could read that. I didn't.

This year, I started off my summer season with Perks of Being A Wallflower, which I read in three days and loved it. Thanks to the recommendation of Stevie. While in LA, I asked Stevie of a good book to read while there, since I figured I'd be on the beach and wanted some reading material. So he told me about Invisible Monsters, which I bought at the UCLA bookstore and started right away. I didn't finish it until like last week. I bought it at the end of May. It took soo long for me to finish it. Not that I wasn't into the book but because I would look at the book sitting there and think, I'm not in the mood. :/

So now as the summer winds down, I am in search of another book. I have had a couple recommendations but I am skeptical about some of their synopses (sp?).

I am into reading stories with a lot of intrigue and thought provoking. 

Any suggestions???

PS. I do not wish to read Harry Potter right now. LOL

Nobody's Home

My whole body feels so sore and I am so tired. Granted, I woke up at 5 AM today and worked till 12, but seriously I've done that so many times I should not be this tired. 

I am hoping that I am not falling ill. However, getting out of work earlier than the 27th would be great. Just the fact that it'd be for being sick isn't great.

I get that empty feeling sometimes.

Where you just feel like there is nothing there and somebody's knocking on your door but nobody's home.

I guess I should be glad there is someone to be knocking in the first place.

New Moosik!

Every now and then, I will download/buy new music and go on a spree and get a whole bunch of new artists and songs at once. Well I recently have added some new music to my library. 

Well to start off I went and saw Mamma Mia and loved it. Naturally, I had to get the soundtrack, so my friend made a copy of the play's soundtrack and I had to get some of the movie songs too. I love when Christine Baranski and Meryl Streep "dig" their voices in the songs. 

My friend also burned me a copy of Martha Stewart's Nap Time album....Yes...I am serious. LOL

I love quiet and mellow music especially when I am sleeping. I have a sleep playlist on my iPod so I put all of those on there. There is a cover of "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" that is really good. 

Omg. Then at Target last week, I saw these Target albums where were themed like Dance or Espresso. They were 75% off so I got each of them for $2.50. The first one was Dance: Groove and I thought it would be upbeat and techno-esque.  It is not what I expected. It is like very sensual and does not induce dancing. "Lay It Down" and "Head Rush" are some sample song titles. Whoa.

The other one I bought was labeled Espresso: Breakfast in Bed. I had to get this, one because it was coffee related and two because it reminded me of having breakfast in bed on a sunny Sunday morning being all cozy. So it was impulse buying at its best.

My last set of new music is some songs from the Shelter soundtrack. I bought them off iTunes and didn't buy the whole thing but the ones that I loved; mainly the ones by Shane Mack. I just love his voice and the music is so.....sad. I hate to admit but I got all teary eyed while driving into work the other morning. I couldn't help it. Note: These were also added to my Sleep playlist.

But otherwise that is all.

PS. That picture is in my newly built Ikea desk chair named Allak. Moses just didn't quite cut it for me.

Posters!

These are some posters I recently found on Allposters.com and I really love them. I want to buy them all, however, they will cost a lot and are not necessary. lol

1. This first one is just something that fits me so well and would likely be on the wall of my coffee shop to make guests aware that I have attitude and I am not afraid to use it.

2. The second poster has great colors and the fade adds so much character. The deep reds, blues, and beiges make me feel all cozy. With the saying "Is there life before coffee?" is just perfect for me. Because seriously, I fail to see life without coffee.

3. This third one is not a poster but a magnet.  It is how I feel in the morning especially when working. If I don't drink my coffee before I serve people I have such attitude and it starts my morning off rotten.  Most other mornings I can wake up over a longer period of time and will not have the intention of killing you. ;)

4. "Share A Random Moment" This is classic, it really is. Two cups of coffee with the implication for two people to randomly grab a cup of coffee and make a memory. I love love love having a random coffee moment at my local Starbucks or at a nice little coffee shop with a friend.

5. This poster has nothing to do with coffee but it is a wall tapestry. I believe its like 3 or 4 feet wide. It's colors are gorgeous and their contrast is even greater. The craziness of the curls tell me that life can be a little crazy and off balance but it can still be cheerful and exciting, shown by the bright reds, orangey yellows, and baby blues.

Those are just a few favorites I found. What are you opinions on them??

Dinner Partayyy

So here is my update on my dinner party!:

Twas a success and everything went pretty well. I originally declared a semi-casual dress code and everybody followed directions. lol

Note: When I have a function, I get strict and have high expectations of people to follow directions and be respectful. I may sound crazy, but if I say it starts at 5:30 do not come at 5 or come at 6:30. It's 5:30. Plus, It is a DINNER party, so expect food, so don't eat before coming.

The menu I had thought of the day before and bought the stuff for it and it's so hard when you can't be really creative and funky with the menu because you don't know what people like to eat. And I would hate to have made something and have people want to eat it. But then again I can't satisfy everybody's needs.

SO I made the mini pizzas with the whole wheat dough which came out AMAZING. I was so proud of it. The sauce for the pasta was light but it was kind of bland in my opinion. It needed someone extra and I couldn't think of it.

For dessert I randomly created something that day because I had no clue on what to make. 

I took some crushed graham crackers, oatmeal, and butter as a bottom crust. Then topped it with brownie mix including walnuts and chocolate chips. I sprinkled coconut on top then swirled in come cake batter. After baking, I frosted and sprinkled it. It was pretty good, surprisingly. lol

But I love doing things like this and I am glad people showed up and had a good time. Despite it starting to rain on us. :/

PS. The people in the picture above are all that came minus Me. Left to Right: Helene, Jen, Renee, Jenn, Joey, and Brielle.

PSS. Thanks to Helene for being my Sous Chef and helping cook. :D

All I Need Is One Shot...

I am having a dinner party tomorrow night. I need to create a menu. I am usually really good at whipping things up and having them be amazing. 

I am off to the store to grocery shop. 

Wish me luck.

PS. I will update afterwards with my final menu.

UPDATE:

I am making homemade mini pizzas with a wheat crust and fresh basil and mozzarella, then roasted chicken with broccoli and tomatoes over pasta in a light white wine cream sauce and a light salad on the side. Desert is still up in the air. :/

Phone Phailure

During today's events, my phone had a hard crash with wet pavement and is now crippled forever, pictured above. You can probably see the crack in the screen. The touch feature still works on the outer screen but the visible LCD screen part is totally ruined. You can see my beautiful Malibu Beach overlook background destroyed by the black multicolor mess of a crack.

So you might be wondering how this happened.

Well...

During my golf tournament I was at, I was driving up a small hill to the parking lot with Jenn in the passenger seat. I was on the phone with my golf team member in my left hand. PS. It had just downpoured for three hours previously. Jenn decides we need to go right so she jerks the wheel and my phone goes flying out of my left hand slamming into the wet pavement.  The battery falls out and I turn it on to a total disaster. 

Good news is that I am getting a replacement phone shipped to me in a few days. Jenn was nice enough to pay the replacement fee. 

That was the crazy part of my day and helped my PMS'ing mood step up two levels of bitchiness to almost a tearing pity party but was saved by a Grande Caffe Vanilla Light Frappuccino.

Mini Vacation & Major Tan

SO, if you can't notice from this picture, I got some sun these past few days. And you might be able to see a hint of Raccoon Eyes. lol

I wore sunglasses a lot and these caused the tan difference around my eyes. But otherwise my few days were nice.

I did get annoyed with my parents and they thought I was totally bored. Which at times, I was, but otherwise I just wanted to relax.

I was able to sit at the beach for a bit during the day and at night. I think nighttime was my favorite though. 

Even though I was like the only single person on the beach, I parked near an empty spot and just curled up in my hoodie and sweatshorts and listened to the waves and feel the seabreeze against my skin. The cooled sand felt good against my skin and gave me a chill.

I also happily enjoyed a banana split that was TO DIE FOR. It was one scoop Pirate Pandamonium (PB ice cream with fudge swirl and chocolate covered pretzels) and one scoop Birthday Cake ice creams with real whipped cream, hot fudge, fresh strawberries, walnuts, and a banana. And OMG it was fantastic. 

I didn't do much shopping but that's probably a good thing. 

So after a few days without using much sunscreen, I am more tan and just a tad relaxed.

PS. My internet escape wasn't as nice as I had thought but it was worth a shot.

Mini Vacation

So right now I am rushing around packing up stuff because I am soo behind schedule. 

I am going to meet up with my parents for a few days to escape this wretched place called HOME.

Work has made me soo stressed and I need some space from people in general. 

I will probably come back to complain about my parents but whatever.

I apologize for not blogging recently and for leaving the internet for a few days. I think it is time for a break.

I'm not sure if I can make it.

Bye for now. 

Twitter Thoughts

My addiction which started towards the beginning of this year just might have ended.

Twitter.

I became obsessed with it like it was a drug and it spread like a disease. Once I turned on Twitter Text Updates it was all downhill. I was updating every 5 minutes and with any random thought I had I would HAVE to update.

Then I began thinking in Twitter Thoughts, making every situation into an update. It took over and made me crave more and more attention from Twitter.

With that said, I think I am over the stalking/social-networking site especially in the form of text updating. I turned off text updates which will result in less text messages on my phone bill. But who actually counts those. ;)

I also unregistered my phone for the site, so I can no longer even update via text. I have to wait till I get home and on my computer.

I think it will be a good step in keeping me sane.

What are your thoughts? 

PS.  I will be able to sit through a conversation with someone without getting a Twitter Texts. lol

Future Failure

DEVON SUCKS

IKEA FEVER

A few days ago, I took the hour or so trip and experienced the world of IKEA for the second time.  I was yet again amazed, excited, shocked, and bedazzled by the store.  The first time I walked into the blue & yellow store, I was in Burbank, California.

I think it was love at first sight when I was there but the hardest part was not buying anything, because there was no way I could fit a desk or something similar in my suitcase. 

With the time simmering down until I move into my new apartment in the fall, I needed to get some supplies and furniture.

I drove to the closest IKEA with my friend Jenn and we had a blast. We spent four hours in the store. Yes, FOUR. This also included a lunch in their cafeteria and of course I had to try their swedish meatballs. 

In the end, I felt guilty looking at my reciept total but justified the purchases as necessary for living. These included a throw, two bamboo shoots, trivets, assorted candles, a pot, a mini Yucca Palm Tree, fabric, a lamp, a coffee table, and a desk chair.

I took a few pictures of my purchases, including a 59 cent tarp like bag which I am so happy about. Something so cheap yet so satisfying.

I have fallen in love with IKEA and cannot wait to go back and buy more useless....necessary goodies. :D

PS. I justify my shopping at IKEA by thinking that I am supporting my heritage/family since I am 25% Swedish.

Paris! Paris! No Paris.

In the Gardens of Versailles^
Eiffel Tower at night^
Louvre Museum^
My friend Renee & I in front of Sacre Coeur

SO, my last post was a total lie but if I could I would love to just leave for the City Of Light and just do my own thing there. I was there in 2006 with my school and I fell in love with it.

I felt like posting some of my favorite pictures from the trip since they are the closest thing I will come to Paris for a year.

PS. Please do not click on the last picture and critique my jeans. I know now that they are kind of hideous.

Running Away

I am running away to Paris and opening up my own cafe.

Goodbye.

PS. Au Revoir.

ACCORDION ORGASM

I love this song. Enough said.

In-Grid "You Promised Me"

PS. Thanks to Joey for telling me of this amazing techno polka ghetto dance beat.

Lucky Raindrops

It's raining. Blah.

Thunder is rumbling. Blah Blah

I am listening to Katy Perry's new album. So far so good.

Off to buy Kerli's new album. I know that will be good.

I keep buying so much music! I keep telling myself, "Tom, save your money for when you need it and stop spending!"

However, I am addicted to spending money.

On that note, I am going to cash my $2 lottery ticket, which I won $20 on, and buy some more.

Because I feel lucky. 

If I win again, I will buy more tickets, more music, and Andy some modeling classes to make his Blog portraits better! ;)

Clash

These are my new boardshorts I bought at H&M today on sale for $10. I am sooo proud. LOL I love clearance with passion!

But seriously they totally clash with my tee right now but I'm feeling fashionably rebellious.

Suck it GQ! 

I am in LOVE with the colors of the shorts. I want these colors in my room, in my closet, and everywhere. Brown, Beige, White, & Blue FTW!!!!

PS. Those colors are so going in my new apartment.

PSS. I love GQ and didn't really mean that. :)

Kerli Kuotes

Okay so that title doesn't really work, but I like it so there mwah.

Tonight in Kerli's video chat she really talked deeply about things and to me she is more a normal person than a celebrity. She talked about how people who are in the business for the money are making their own decisions and its their lives. Kerli believes that each person is set out to do something in their lives and she is doing what she dreams of. Or at least that is what I received from her discussion.

Another subject was regrets. She thinks that it is important to have no regrets in life.

In my life, there are plenty of things that I regret and disagree with my actions.  Is it hard to overcome those? Yes. As someone matures they look at all directions, past, present, and future. Most times one of those three take precedent and cause the most stress or anxiety.  It changes from day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute, but what I realize is that without being comfortable with your own past, how can you look clearly towards the future?

Smiles?

SO for the first time in awhile...I am happy right now. I can't really explain it. Could it be that it was my first day at work after being out for a week for my injured foot? and that I made decent money?

Or that after I got out of work I was really productive?

Or that I visited Target and bought a DirtDevil Kone?

Or that I read an article about High School Musical 3?

Or that I watched my new favorite person's, Kerli, video chat on kyte.tv?

Or that she was eating a cupcake on her chat?

Or that she answered one of my questions?

Or that she responded to Andy's video message, in which I was mentioned?

Or simply that I vacuumed and febrezed my room today?

Or more simply that my bed sheets are fresh and clean?

Can you answer that? Because I really cannot.

Even though my foot still hurts and is currently being iced with a frozen bag of peas, I am happy and I hope that this mood continues. 

However, with my attitude it will change quicker than New England weather ... or Lindsay Lohans sexuality.

Just a little Bossy ;)

I've been obsessed with downloading all this new music lately. My "Recently Added" playlist is soooo long right now. 

But my latest infatuations for music are Kerli, Heidi Montag, Lindsay Lohan, and Vanessa Hudgens.

~Kerli~

Andy introduced me to Kerli and her song "Walking On Air." I freaking love it! The video is soooo creepy though!! I love the whole character of the video despite it giving me nightmares. Her sound is very different and I have a feeling she will become big here in the US, because I think shes Norwegian. Kerli has a definite Emo feel to her but Pop-esque. "Not A Barbie Doll" pretty much sums up her style. (Walking On Air)

Heidi Montag.....*gasp*.....

Yes, I have to admit that her reputation is not splendid especially for being an attention whore. And I am almost ashamed to support her in her music career. But hey, I like it so there. :-)

She definitely doesn't hit the high notes but her beats are super hot and I love dancing to them!

She has a slightly slower one that is a favorite, "No More." Check it out! (No More)

Lindsay Lohan - Bossy

This single came out and I am confused on if she has a new album or just did this for fun. Since she doesn't seem to care about any career that she has....or had. But good news, she has an album coming out in November, I think, and I am actually really excited! This song is sooo hot and the bridge around 3:10ish is downright amazing!!! It calls for strobe lights, fog, glitter, and maybe some ecstasy LOL or M&M's in my world.

Vanessa Hudgens - her new CD "Identified"

Of course, I adore Vanessa from High School Musical. Her and Ashley Tisdale can call me anytime to go shopping and get coffee. We'd soo be BFF's. Anyways! Vanessa debuted her second album this week and I LOVE it! Her first self-titled cd was really good and touched me because of her lyrics. In her some "Drive" it kind of resembled my feelings on my future: 

"I've hit the highway, and I'm not comin home 
I'm gonna drive 
I'll do it my way, I'll call you on the phone 
When I arrive 
It's all I got and I'm not gonna stop for no one 
In my way as long as I'm alive 
I'm gonna drive"

But this new CD has a lot of upbeat songs which I love like "Amazed" and "Identified" 

So check those out! and Let me know what you think!! :)

I Don't Know

I don't know.

Why does everybody resort to using this phrase simply because they are too lazy, scared, confused, or just too bottled up.

I can never trust people who say this anymore because I honestly don't know if they are keeping me from the truth and playing off that they "don't know."

This just frustrates me because it comes up everyday in my life. You don't always realize it but listen to how many times you say it and think about if you really mean it.

I admit to doing it all the time and I proudly call myself a hypocrite because most times I am too lazy to explain something or speak freely.  If some random person asks me for directions I usually help them but sometimes I am just in a mood where I don't care to help so I say "I don't know." Or my mom will ask about a friend and how they are doing and I will just say "I don't know" because I really don't feel like explaining to her about this person. 

But I just hate when people say that and deep down I know that they are lying to me. I can tell...I am not stupid.

I think people use it as an escape ladder. But you wanna know something? . . . That ladder doesn't last forever. It has an end.

Cupcakes, NYC, and Disgusting Heat

Ok, so it has been forever since I have blogged. And yes I haven't had much passion towards writing my feelings in public.

But I did want to talk about yesterday and how fun it was!

Took a trip to NYC with Dan and met up with Joe (disneykid1) and walked around in the disgusting heat. lol It was sooo hot and humid and to make it worse the sweat. I felt like I was swimming. Talk about first impressions. :/

We went to Magnolia Bakery and had an amazing cupcake lol before it melted. Did some shopping and used Joe as a fashion consultant for my purchases at American Apparel. haha. He adores the store and was very helpful. 

And omg I tried on their pants which the highest size is 34....my current waist. Made me sad lol that I am considered fat there. But I picked up two tees and I'm really excited. The one I'm wearing in the pic above is AA and I bought it in LA.

Well I am off to stay cool in this wretched heat and be somewhat productive :)

I'm Back and Full of Juicy Goodness

86 the Juicy Goodness part...that just sounds wrong lol 

Well I haven't blogged in like two weeks. The reasoning for this...I am not quite sure...but I think I just wasn't in the mood to share my life.

Things are going okay with me, my school year is almost over and could honestly not come at a better time. I've lost all focus on priorities and don't really care about much these days.  I feel like anything I put effort into just falls away and doesn't matter. SO, with that said, I guess I'll try and blog more hoping that something will come out of it. One more day of classes tomorrow :) But I have work to do so until next timmmmme.

Studious Stanley

Ya, Thats me.....

Working on a bunch of stuff which was not accomplished this past weekend:

One. because the weather was gorgeous, and I can't just sit and do homework when the sun is calling me.

Two. I developed a bad cold and therefore wanted to rest and not think.

But now, I still have a bad cold, and a worse headache than before. And this needs to be done. 

So I have sequestered myself in the library until I get a good chunk of this done.

I have a meeting tonight at 7 and I might have to skip American Idol :(

I am so hungry right now but don't feel like eating because I'm sick but I think I might pass out. How many calories do cough drops have??

PS. I'm wearing this new shirt today, its a brown linen button down from H&M. I love it but I'm wearing khakis and flipflawps and feel like Jesus, minus the beard and hippie hair.

Perfection

Perfection:

Can be defined in many different ways with its definition specific to every person.

Well today, in my terms was perfect! :) Of course subtracting cupcakes and the beach from the equation...

I woke up and saw a beautiful day outside! I took my time getting ready and enjoyed a cup of fresh brewed coffee. I stepped outside into the warm sunlight and it felt spectacular! After shopping for a brief time for new chaise cushions, I spent my entire afternoon and evening outside. I sat on my deck and read almost an entire book, made homemade guacamole, listened to some great music (my new favorite band: Cut Copy) and made margaritas with my family.

The weather was freaking AMAZING. . . seriously it hit a high of 80 and there was a soft breeze. The sun hit my skin and I felt it flooding into my skin and through my body. I know that sounds weird because I'm talking about sunlight but seriously it was 'hot' ;) 

 

Besides having a sore throat, I am going to bed extremely happy and downright ecstatic.

I lived today to its full extent in memory of a friend, two years ago today you left this world but remain in our hearts. RIP

It's a beautiful morning!

It's gorgeoussss outside!

I cannot wait to sit out and relax in the sun! :)

I've waited all winter for this weather and it's finally here so I'm going to enjoy it!

Get out there and frolick!

....

Well maybe not frolick but go play tennis, take a walk, go for a jog, just do something outside! That way you won't have to feel guilty for eating last nights dessert ;) LOL

That's The Way It Is

OK I know its hard but stop looking at my fierce picture and read the blog! lol

Well I haven't posted in like a week and I am not quite sure why. My weekend was kind of busy and things are have been different for me. Another excuse... Twitter and Youtube. Yeah, they still have me brainwashed. 

The weathers starting to change and it becomes gorgeous outside! I love Spring!!! But that means I care less and less about doing work. It just doesn't interest me because I feel like it doesn't matter to anybody around me. I can't call it hard work but what I do seems to just fade into the rest of the world. I think that it could be pushing on me the idea of "uniqueness." 

The rest of me has yet to find a path.  I can't seem to find my way down to the warm sunny beach with a cool sea breeze and a Frappaccino and cupcakes (this is happiness in my world). Weird analogy but seriously, when does it happen? when do people find happiness? when do people know that everything is perfect??

I guess that I have time to figure this out for myself and find my unique qualities that make me stand out among the rest of the world. I typically sit in front of my computer and just talk and surf the internet.  After watching a video on youtube about reading, it honestly made me think that what the hell am I doing? Why am I wasting my time on this computer? It's not like I'm doing anything to further my knowledge besides finding out what Paris Hilton said to another celebrity.  

I am going to try really hard to focus my attention on something interesting and broaden my knowledge with reading; something other than school related.  I want to read the bestsellers and books that give positive light into this sometimes cloudy world.

Besides reading more, I think that I will try and vent my feelings, opinions, confessions, and stories, and maybe a little gossip ;) on the blog.

A huge life lesson: Accept yourself and the world you live in because that's they way it is.

Plaid Wednesday

Heyyy Bloogers! 

haha thats kinda fun...bloogers not bloggers Wow I'm bored

!! Happy Wednesday !!

"On Wednesdays, we wear PINK!" HAHA

^Name that movie!

Well I wear plaid! Actually this is only one of two plaid shirts I own, the other is a brown in the same pattern. Of course from Hollister.

So today is a good day :) I woke up FREEZING because I sleep next to a window and it got so cold! I don't know why. But I went to the gym and felt so energetic! Now i have that afternoon sleepiness syndrome, so i feel like napping :(

I've been twittering all day and its a terrible addiction! LOL once you turn on text alerts, it will never end! But I've met some cool people on there!

On a music note, 

I love Celine Dion. I never really listened to her and loved My Heart Will Go On ( I listened to that nonstop when Titanic came out). But I went on a downloading spree and got her new album. Let's just say its fantastic! My favorite song off of it is Eyes On Me, sounds like a James Bond title but its so hot! It has what I call "Arabicness" to it. (I don't mean any offense, but it sounds like Aladdin, so i call it that!) 

Also, Mariah's song Migrate is catching on to me! It just makes me wanna move my hips! Let's give it time!

Well I'm off to go to Starbucks for the third time today! :D

Adiossss

Cleveland's Next Top Model!

Peeved

Ok so I realize that the History Channel is still on because there are SOME people that watch it.

I cannot stand it! Ugh

It bugs the crap out of me! Im not calling history not important but this channel is just blah! 

The narration is boring and makes them talking about "how to make a aluminum can" exciting.

(I'm not joking, my roommate was watching that last night)

I think they need RosstheIntern or someone like Nicole Richie lol. They'd make it so much more worth watching!

Maybe it just bugs me because it's always on and gets turned on for background tv. Put on something good like music videos or a sitcom which is funny! aka Friends?! Will & Grace?!

Who would you want to narrate a show!?

Flip Flops!

Breaking News!

Its flip flop weather!!! Yayyyyy!

It's great weather out side and it means that summer is coming!

I can't wait.

It means summer, tanning, smoothies, frappaccinos, tanning oil, daiquiris, nachos, the beach, camp outs, late night movies, toasted marshmallows, etc....!

(can you tell I'm thinking about food?? lol)

What do you looove about summer???

The Hills!

The Hills

is on tonight!

10 PM on MTV

I've just gotten into the show but its addicting! Love the drama and friendly backstabbing, plus it has celebrity/paparazzi reality style with a hint of script. 

Gimme thoughts!

Update:!!!

Seriously I hate Spencer's character ( yes character because they aren't real!)

He's a jerk and just because his sisters being friendly, he makes her cry! Wait, in his words, "she's making herself cry" Gawd!

I support Stephanie and Lauren's new found friendship. But Audrina and Heidi, thats illegal. And the fact that Audrina is being all shady about it, is bad and will turn worse!

This show is soo dramatic...I love it! 

PS. Also love the music from it and how MTV tells you what's playing!

Tired and Twittered

Ahhhh...Aren't Mondays fantastic!?

Well in a desperate plea for attention, I procrastinated a project and had to stay up until 2 AM to finish it. Then I had to wake up at 6 AM for class. But surprisingly, I was in a great mood last night and didn't stress about all the work. It was very odd. Usually I am freaking out that I have so much to do. I think that it's my dramatic personality that comes out. 

Last week, I discovered something amazing and have been obsessed with it every since.....

TWITTER

It's a website that you log into and you have a profile. You then write updates about yourself that are less then 140 characters. It's very similar to Facebook updates.  You can write whatever you want and then you can search other people and "follow" them and they "follow" you. Its a crazy cycle but honestly I've been updating like every hour and everybody else does it like twice a day. They probably think I'm crazy! Haha But my texts will be skyhigh because I get Twitter texts now lol.

Well Enjoy your Monday! Thanks For Stopping By!

Do the Scrunch!

I've done this face since I was a baby. I don't know why but its like a stretch lol.

I do it like 3-4 times a day.

I challenge you !!!!!!

Try the scrunch!!!!

Just make sure nobodys looking because as you can see...its not very attractive!

Haha totally random

But on a serious note, the pregnant man.

This is very strange and at first your like WTF.

Look into the subject but before judgement, understand that he is a person. Think about it. 

Tired

So I'm tired.

Went to bed late from homework.

Woke up early.

So I leave you with this video, it's slow and relaxing and I Love AliciaKeys! :)

Have an amazing day!

PS. Stay Awake!